I hate Australia

of times i have had my heart broken: only twice.. of hearts i have broken: one..sorry...

daniel rolling around on a table full of chalk.....awww...regret not going yet? pic is courtesy frm the judgement day court judge!
just 1 word......LEGEND!


lets not forget the hilarious impact making pastor...

the "holy" camp commander-(see! his face is en-lightened!)


okay u can stop looking now!
(uuugrh? what she looking at ar?-sorry sarah!-!!

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Smirk
You're the smirk, a frown-smile hybrid that's a
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probably just don't give a damn, but it's
everyone else's fault if you don't because
you're too awesome to have any real faults.

Faultless? Sure, why not?

Anyway... onto the mundane stuff.
There was a That 70's Show fest last night. I would like to congratulate Channel 7 for putting the show back on air. Ha, I know they won't find this rant but I'll congratulate them anyway, even if I know they won't read this rant I'll congratulate them anyway. Okay I'll stop.

I've been saying quotes from the show the whole day. Oh how I've missed it so! So today I mimic my mother in my mother's voice: "Ano ba yang nakukuha nyo sa tibi show na yan? Puro quotes!" Of course she'd never say anything like that, but I like to make up quotes from my parents.

I was wondering, why is it more appealing to see an image of someone writing on a piece of paper than seeing someone typing on a computer?

So I was watching Entertainment Tonight just then. And I saw Jeff Bridges' photographic collection. I was so impressed by it that I am now considering taking photographs of people and worldly events of their worldly lives. Yep! Just as Ricky Fitts has inspired me to take videos of things that fascinate me.

Now you know that I am an easily-influenced and err easily-inspired person. I also cry easily. Yesterday I watched Mulan, and I cried... I've seen that movie plenty of times but yesterday... I cried. Something's changed...

Everything is starting to turn around. I didn't go into too much detail l about what has been going on. I guess when you write it down it seems too real..or maybe I was just in denial. I don't know. My sister moved out a week ago, since then things got just a bit worse but have steadily gotten MUCH better. Before she got here I had already been stressed out about alot of things...in a sense my depression pretty much started right after Pete's mom passed and then just got worse after that. Having my sister here was hard. Not only was our food bill almost double what it used to be, she was a pain in the ass. She talks back and has a serious attitude problem. What was worse about it, is that Kaya started getting the same attitude she was. I was starting to panic that my duaghter would turn out like her. She was making my life hell. To top it off, my mom was the completely unsupportive. So I had to deal with my kids but take care of her as well. She was pure drama...the phone rang at odd hours of the night, she ran up my cell phone bill and she called Pete names and never listened to any of us. The entire time she lived here she did nothing! I still can't believe what an ungrateful little witch she was. The situation came to a head when I set some limits on her. She supposedly studied for a month to take the written portion of the driving exam. I set a date for her to take it and i had to reschedule it numerous times becasue she wasn't ready. Finally I said "look you need to stop putting this off and take it...you have been studying for over a month you should be ready". Well she wasn't, she failed miserably and then proceeded to tell me it was the kids fault becasue they don't let her study. I HAD to laugh. I have taken care of both of them and taken up to 17 units and still managed a 4.0. The truth is that she had lied to me...she never really studied. All she did was sit around and watch MTV all freakin day. Pathetic!! Well after she failed the exam I told her that she need to buckle down and study and that she would retake the exam the following Monday. She said she wasn't going to be able to study becasue she was going out of town for a party. WHAT? Oh hell no your aren't. I was pissed that her priorities were all about partying and watching TV and less about looking for a job or getting herself ahead in life. I told her that she was doing nothing of the sort. I guess in a sense I wanted to teach her a lesson about priorities. I told her the only way she was going to that party was if she passed the test. She agreed that I was right and she decided she would study hard the remainder of the week and attempt the test again. She failed the test last Friday...TWICE. So I told her, "well the deal was... if you pass, you go to the party, if you don't... you stay home this weekend and I'll take you to look for a job". She said no. She said that if I didn't just let her go to the party she was going anyway. I told her she was free to go to the party but if she went she better pack up her stuff and go back to moms. So she did. When I asked her about her committment to watching Cameron and giving me a week notice to find daycare...she told me just to drop my classes because they weren't important anyway. Just goes to show you her level of maturity. Its sad... I looked for daycare everyday since Friday...most of them were completely full and I went to see some that were downright gross... they couldn't even pay me to leave my child there! I stressed all week wondering if I would have to drop my classes. I missed my classes on Tuesday and I still frantically searched. FINALLY on Wednesday night I saw an ad and called it. The woman lives soooo close to my house, she does a WONDERFUL preschool curriculum and the house and play yard is perfectly organized and I just fell in love with her! I couldn't believe it! I am willing to spend more than I have to on this place. Its great!! She was so helpful and understanding and Cameron just loves her. He had such a great first day..he wanted to stay longer! I'm so glad I didn't settle on any other place. More good news...Kaya today received another student of the month award today! This is her 3rd one and she is in second grade! I'm so proud of her...she amazes me. Not only is she sweet, funny and adorable, she is a smart cookie too! I couldn't ask for more from her. God blessed me with the best kids ever. I don't know what I did to deserve them, but I'm grateful. Tomorrow is my 30th Birthday...I can't believe the last day of my 20's is today!! It's amazing how fast it has flown by. I'm not afraid to get older but I just hate to see my life go by so quickly. I keep reminding myself to take advantage of every moment! Tonight, I am going to indulge myself with some "me" time. My dad will be over here in a few to watch the kids for a few hours. I can't wait. Manicure...pedicure...maybe the haircut I keep putting off. :0) I will be meeting my girlfriend at the mall and just relaxing...ahh the life! LOL Tomorrow night is my party! Definately looking forward to that and I will try and post pictures quickly! I hope all who are reading have the most wonderful weekend! I know I will. Take care my sweets... ~M

Ugh I'm glad it's almost Friday because this has turned out to be a not so good week. First, I will update on Matt Damon or the LACK thereof. :( Pete's BIL Steve was staying in LA for two weeks and we planned on watching the Jay Leno show on Monday night. I arranged for day care, Pete had the day off and I was so excited and set to go. Steve (last minute) decides that he really doesn't care to see Matt Damon and completely flaked. He told me that he was unwilling to wait in the line at 7 am to get the tickets for the 5 pm taping, and that he heard (lord knows from who) that it would be hard to get the tickets. Whatever! He said that if I was willing to show up at 7 and get them that they would come. HELLO!!! Dumb ass you are staying 15 minutes away from the studio and I am 2 hours away!! How in the hell does that make sense?? Basically, I was soooo pissed I was at a loss for words. Pete and I decided to say fuck 'em and stayed home to watch it. I was depressed all day.

On to crappy week part #2...my F*&$%# computer!! My computer just threw in the towel, it decided to die on me Tuesday morning and I knew it was coming. I hated that crappy computer...but at the same time it's one of my lifelines. I feel incomplete without it..going 2 days was like torture. I wondered if I had email...I needed to update my blog, I had to check all the crap I read everyday...my boards. I was lost....and its soooo sad and pathetic to say. After trying to fix it and calling HP and getting them to help me...they told me to restore it. So, I lost everything. I did back up most of my pictures...but I did not back up any of my papers from last semester and I was really proud of them. I lost my buddy lists, I lost all of my email addresses that I had on outlook. Gosh, that bums me out. :( Oh well.

So what did I do with my spare time? I read. I got around to reading "Suzanne's diary for Nicholas" and it was good. I read that in like 4 hours. At the end of the book I cried like a baby, and for a second I was afraid I would wake Pete up. LOL After I finished that I started "The Notebook". I'm almost done with that one... I think I have about 20 more pages to go on it...and its really good so far. So I guess all is not lost, I love to read and it was nice to get a little break from the puter. Not that anyone even noticed I've been gone, but I sure noticed. LOL Hopefully my next entry won't be so negative, I'm hoping things will look up for the weekend.
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Love to all

Unfortunately, I have nothing to say today. Nothing except what I just said; which is, in essence, still something.

hello newbie my first blog and my first entry. right on! i have a lot of trouble sleeping at night. sometimes when i try to force myself to dream, the thoughts i come up with are brilliant. well... they're brilliant to me. i don't have a journal. so these brilliant thoughts are usually forgotten by the time i wake up. so here i am, hoping i can save my thoughts in here. eat vegetables, they are your friend. Have lots of sex, it keeps you young! I love my food and my asian babes. Sukiyaki is one of the finest Japanes dishes, perfect for that delightful babe from Japan.